“I’ve been in the madness of drugs and alcohol for the last thirteen years since my mother passed away. It seemed like after I lost my mother, that is whenever it got really bad.
I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I’ve learned how to let some of them go. It’s all a learning process. I’m still paying for a couple of my mistakes, but it’s okay. I have my freedom. I’ve come a long way.
I come from a good family. My mother and father both worked. They supported us kids. We had never done without. It’s not even like I came from an abusive family or anything like that. I couldn’t have asked for better parents. I think it was just to cover up pain when I lost my mother. Once I started the drugs, I realized, ‘Hey, all of my pain goes away.’ But it actually brings more pain further down.
I am now a graduate of HER Place and have my own apartment. I’m so blessed to find the freedom in recovery, and I have discovered happiness with 16 months clean.
What motivates me to stay clean today is my freedom and when I look back and realize how happy I am being clean compared to being miserable, thinking I was happy in the madness, and I wasn’t. It’s just nice to be happy with who I am today.”